Waltere ! You are a debauchee, but not a Catholic!
You promptly need to go to church and to ask about a pardon of sins from a God!

i imagine you with many people as i said you before in private

Waltere !
For this  a proofs is necessary , instead of your imaginations !!
Your hints can be deciphered as a Witch... Yes - I am a Witch! With green eyes!

Forever, i dont think so otherwise veryone will start to name you for example as a XXXch!

Waltere!
Stop  to name all people an idiots !
Otherwise everyone will start  to name you  an idiot  also!  

                               I   H O P E   Y O U    A R E   A N    I D I O T

To be, or not to be: that is the question...(William Shakespeare )

Three things...
Memento mori.
Carpe diem quam minimum credula postero.
Nunc est bibendum, nunc pede libero pulsanda tellus.

Hope never ends while you are alive, free and in full possession of your senses and limbs.

So sit down and HOPE! The world will come to you   Just hope!      

hope for my life

Hope for what?